My ebay experience (Prologue)

Hello everyone who coincidently or intentionally entered this blog.
I think you might know from this topic and hope to read about my any ebay experience, but before to that point I think I would write and present about my self.

Two years ago, that was the sixth year in my campus life.
Still ungraduated from university, no job,and no future.
I feared to think about my future.
My mind recited the same phase every night.
“You are loser, you are loser”
And my brave was struck by that phase.
I nearly completely became social phobia and my insomnia disorder increasingly affect me.
I couldn’t sleep easily all night.
Recitely thought about my bad luck , obsessed with my failure in the past.
Then it nearly turned to be “panphobia” or fear of everything in one year later.

Yes, I nearly was panphobia .
Yes, I nearly feared everything.
But everything has exception, and my phobia to.
I didn’t fear one thing.

My dead !


During January in this year, my mind was obsessed with suicide.
I tried to search information about it, and got many helpful from many web page.
I knew every chemical compound for poison my self.
Got every detail “ How tied the hangman’s man knot ?’
And know “What is “Do it and don’t do it when you suicide”

But I got failure again.
I can’t released the soul from my body and reincarnate as the new one.
My mind blamed me when I failed the first time suicide.
“ You are a loser again !”
The second times, Third times and …… I can’t remember times.

But My mind gradually changed and asked me.

“Sorry buddy, but I think you would dump all your past and walk through the door.
You will see the future and If not. Let find your future.”

“ Why you still fear everything ?.
YOU CAN DIE AND REBIRTH EVERYTIME AS YOU WANT”

That word dragged me from the despair.
I rethought about my future, tried to find a job that suit for me.
Until I found the word “Ebay”

To Be Continue